Yu and Mi (Part-4)

Yu and Mi (Part- 4)

** This is a work of fiction. **

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Even though we have met many times so far and have extracted many layers, we are yet to reach that depth where love resides. It’s been 3 years since we are in a relationship, but this ship is still on the land, in the mode of testing. At present, we are trying to detect any faults in the ship, if any, so that when we start our journey on the waves of marriage, our ship doesn’t sink down, which is the case in most of the ships. Strange? I know. It is very complicated to handle all this, to control what we speak, to express and most importantly to love. Even the experts in this field are the owners of many broken ships. A lot happened in these 3 years. One more ship had sinked meanwhile. Her parents got divorced last year. It was the epicenter of this ‘Testing mode’ of our ship. I know it is tough for her to handle this, but it is tougher for me when she says she can handle it all alone. She doesn’t let me console her. She says she can be a man too. Nowadays she has become more of a feminist type. I don’t know whether she even understands what she says. The trends on internet always breaks more than join. I saw time, it was 8:30 pm. I felt tired after a busy day. If you keep doing all day what you don’t like, you are prone to get more frustrated. I tried to sleep for half an hour, but I cannot. I felt as if something is going on in my heart.

A quick meeting was planned by the three important departments of the company. The place chosen was at some height from the ground. There were four rooms but they decided to meet in the first one. There were three people, one each from the 3 important departments. There were two choices. They had to decide on one. The issue was that the company is in trouble and the owner of it cannot sleep at night. There are no revenues and there are assets neither.

The manager of the top department, which deals with technical stuff and investment, said that the company is not running well as we are investing too much in wrong stocks. Even though we got good returns for the first two years, now what we spent is getting more than what we received. Their department believes that it’s time to change the stock in which they are investing and find some better stock.

The manager of the Middle department, which deals with public relations and emotional issues, said that even though the stocks are very good, they are going from a difficult period at present. They are under pressure. Their owner is having personal issues which takes time to get fixed. We got good returns for the first two years of the investment, only from one year we are facing this. If we believe in them for some more time, we will get much more than we have expected. Have faith.

The manager of the bottom department, which deals with growth and pleasure, complained that both the other departments are getting their share of what’s left but his department is yet to receive its payment from the beginning. It’s not fair. But he said his department believes that only this stock can provide the best growth rate to the company. I request you to give my payment soon. Our staff is suffering.

As two of the three managers decided to keep investing in the stock, they decided to go on with the company’s rules. New policies and programing was set and company consciousness was rewired. Suddenly the place began to shake. It felt as if there’s an earthquake. They rushed under a cage and held their hands with a smile on their faces. They remember they felt 2 aftershocks.

After 3 sneezes, I felt somewhat relieved. Something inside was hurting me before this, as if some people were sitting inside my heart and discussing something. After 3 sneezes I felt as if my consciousness has been rewired. New ideas kept coming inside as if more energy has been invested in my body. I realized that she is going through a tough phase, how can I, in such phase quarrel with her. Patience level increased in me. But it is not only me. She is also showing lots of patience. She is bearing the angry side of me. I do business of export and import, which she says is not for me. She says I am meant to write. I write and try to inspire people, but it cannot earn me bread. She always wants me to do something about my passion, I always brush aside the issue. Even I want to do something about my passion, I tried many publishing houses but I got rejected. I didn’t tell her about all this, she is already facing enough. Her mom has shifted to Delhi after the divorce. Anyway, even before divorce she used to stay in Delhi most of the time. This distance was the cause may be which gave this effect. Her dad who is a textile businessman now just sits at home and keeps crying for the lost deal at night. He never invested enough time in the marriage and have invested enough tears in divorce. He is MAD. Yes, MAD, Married and Divorced. RashMi looks after different charitable works. She loves to help poor people and does painting to get funds, charitable funds. She always wanted to be the son which her father wanted, and believe me, she is. But this has also has made her a feminist. She always brings this issue in the middle, like a nose comes in between two two-lipped scissors. I want to be my father’s son she always says. My mindset never lets me feel as I am poor, as I have rich thoughts and a 6-digit bank balance. She always talks about future, will I stay happy doing all this work, she really believes I am meant for writing. But what future? There is no guarantee of the next second and she talks about unpredictable future. It is like you are standing on one shore and you can see your destination on the other shore. But because our present (boat) is not good, lets wait till future (ship) becomes good. You have boat, then travel. My dad is a bank manager. My mom a home manager. Only their son cannot manage anything emotional! I am stuck in between. To continue with export and import or concentrate on full-time writing. Time was over 9. 9 has always been my lucky number, I was born in 9th month and on 9th day. She said she would message me at 9 in the night when I called her in the morning. She should have come home few minutes ago. Even my mobile knows that. It spoke to me in some unknown language after few seconds.message tone.
Whatsapp, RashMI, 2 messages.

‘Hi’
‘How are Yu?’

I typed *I am fine* and deleted it. And typed something else.

Mi is fine. Yu is not fine.’

‘How can Mi be fine if Yu is not fine!’

‘You are not fine?’

‘No, I am fine.’

‘Really?’

‘Yes. I am.’

‘That’s good. 🙂 ‘

‘Today I went to hospital.’ I felt a chill. What happened suddenly! I didn’t want to spoil a good chat.

‘Pregnant?’

‘Bye.’

‘Sorry. Okay. Tell. What happened?’

‘One of the staff member of charitable trust met with an accident. Someone called me from the spot, as my number was on the last called.’

‘I am so sorry. How is he now? Everything fine?’

‘She died. When I reached to the hospital, everything was over. Doctor said it was very late.’

‘Oh! I am very sorry. May her soul rest in peace.’

‘Thanks! :)’

‘Thanks? For what? For being an accident in your life?’

‘No. For being an angel in my life. You saved my dad that day. I will never forget that AbhimanYu’

‘I was just at the right place at the right time. But you are being a feminist here also. Angel? Me? You say you want to live life like a man. It’s ok. But you are comparing me to an angel! What justice is this!’ I felt guilty the moment I clicked on the send button. My ego typed this, not me. I realized that one sarcastic smiley could have completely changed the meaning of it.

‘Please Yu, not again. I am not up for this today. Angels are heavenly. There are no men and women classifications. I just hope you said this as in a jovial way.’ This relieved me. Not everything has gone out of control. I breathed and then threw my ego in my mental dustbin. Then I started typing.

‘Sorry. I don’t know why, but even I am becoming a menist day by day. My ego is getting better of me. I threw it outside today. See, RashMi, you know I never hurt you intentionally and will never. It is all our uncontrolled emotions that becomes our villian. I am very proud of you. You are a very responsible son and a responsible daughter. And you are even playing a role of a mother, by looking after your father. Hats off.’ Something inside me felt free the moment I sent this message. How great it feels to keep the ego aside and talk with our loved ones. I bet some discussions have taken place in my heart today which has rewired my perspective and consciousness.

‘Thank you AbhimanYu. I needed this assurance. I know you will never hurt me. Yes, my father have become like a child. As a mother, it is difficult for me to handle all this. That’s why I am not committing to you. I cannot handle it. Anyway, it is father’s duty to fulfill the child’s wishes. As I am the mother, can you be the father?’ I realized how difficult it is to be in the body of women. I felt very proud of her and all women at once.

‘Try me’

‘The child needs the real mother. :(‘ She sent this and went offline. I know she will be crying. But crying is important in such situations. If there is no rain, there won’t be rainbow. I have to become that rainbow. Her father needs the real mother, who else it can be, his wife. Now I have a boat infront of me, I won’t wait for the ship. I took out the contact of the real mother. Devyani Mehra. I pressed ‘call’. This is just the second time I am calling her. First time I called her was when his husband was physically hurt, and now when he is mentally hurt.

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Thanks for reading. Have a great day. 

Yu and Mi (Part-1)

Yu and Mi (Part-2)

Yu and Mi (Part -3)

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Stores and stories

Stores are where things are kept.
Stories are where humans are kept.

When we need something physical or material, we go to the stores. When we need something cognitive or intangible, we go to stories. Stories always, since the beginning of time, have been the best place to hide the secrets, mysteries and knowledge within them. If we read them by words, they are just stories to satisfy our mind-hunger. But if we read them between the lines, we will find the purpose of the story and knowledge within it. If we read them materially and pragmatically, they become myths. Only when we read them philosophically and transcendentally, they become knowledge. Every generation find its own category of stories to connect with Universe. Whatever may be the timeline of Earth, every story that has been penned down or will be penned,  have the same birth place, the mind. Mind is the mother of stories. Mind gives them enough neurons to develop the internal organs of stories, it gives all of its available time to the stories to make them perfect from every angle. With these stories the secrets hidden in brain comes out in form of philosophy.

It is easy to create some random scenes in mind, every one can do that. Actually we all do that. Our messy thoughts are example. But to connect them in a chain, guide them in an unidirectional path and add meaning to them is the tough task. It’s not over there yet. To bring them out of mind plays the major part. This process is like souls (vision of a series of events) are ready, it’s time to put them in bodies (appropriate parts of grammar). And the topping on them is vocabulary which acts like clothes on the bodies. See how simple this looks on gross level. But just imagine on subtler levels, how tough it is to make them meaningful, to make them lively for the readers. For example, think of pain we go through mentally while thinking of making our lives more meaningful and with a purpose!

However beautiful the soul may be, we live in a generation where people get attracted to others by looks and clothes, not souls. That’s the reason only few books become recommendable and famous. But in my opinion no one wastes so much time, thoughts and energy on penning down a book, if its soul is not beautiful in first place. But only a few are capable to grasp the inner meaning for which the story was written. It is easy to fall in love with others by just looking at them, but to connect with soul, we have to read them. So reading is and should be the most important part of everyone’s life. Language should not become the barrier. Don’t get disappointed. Keep reading. Keep writing. Keep expressing. Only in that way we can understand the unknown and the intangible. Remember that Paulo Coelho’s quote, ‘When you really need something, the whole universe conspires you in achieving it’. As this book is mentioned here, let’s dig it down deeper. When we think of this book on a gross level, it may be a book on how a shepherd seeks for unseen treasure and after a lot of travelling he finds the place of hidden treasures. But on the subtle level, we should think this is related to all of us, it is all about us, about souls. We all travel around the whole world but not the place where we live. Yes, our body, the place where all the hidden treasures reside. Isn’t this relatable? And isn’t nature an unending story of 5 elements? Every element plays its role and preserve the Earth’s atmosphere and sustain life.

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You may think books are in physical form then how I explained stories being intangible! You cannot say you touched the content of pen drive by just touching the pen drive. Books are in physical form but we can take their content into us only by reading. Books are just medium to store the stories but not the stories itself. Even thinking is intangible, we create tangible things only when our intangible thoughts are processed in a chain towards achieving that particular object. So we add life to intangible thoughts and make them into objects, into stories. Isn’t every invention a story? Think on it.

When souls are added to bodies, life is formed.
When ‘I’ is added to stores, stories are formed.

Thanks for reading. Keep thinking, keep creating. Have a beautiful weekend.

Jackie Jain

Seeking the light within- Happy Diwali

Within us there is good and there is bad.
The line separating them is so thin that
their allies, love and anger respectively,
fall in the same color wavelength, red.

Evil powers have manipulated us in such a way that we have made darkness our home and never try to come out of the illusion. The allies of bad powers like ego, hatred, anger, greediness, lust, fame, desires et cetera have occupied our brains and we think this is how we should be. Proud and arrogant. How ignorant we are! We are falling to their plot (evil forces).

There are lanterns in bodies precisely planted in such a way by the creator that we can feel ourselves as blissful and enlightened every moment, people used to feel so in ancient times. But when evil powers took over they occupied all the lands of lanterns in our body and filled them with darkness. Good forces being good in nature, tried to prevent this tragedy and made a deal with them. The deal was that if humans try to come out of darkness and search for light within, evil forces will leave the lands of lanterns back to the good forces. Good forces were very confident that humans will definitely search for light. But then the darkness took over. Mind control was the technique. We all stopped searching for light and embraced the darkness. The dust formed on lanterns made us feel alone and fearful. We gave up. We made the darkness the ruler. Anger, ego, misery, lust, hatred, immoral all these became our measuring elements. The more of these, the more powerful we are in others’ perspective. But remember even oceans of darkness cannot satisfy us while even a pinch of light can make us feel blissful and happy.

We cannot seek the light because they have been covered by dust, our deeds, our actions. We have become very evil. Dark powers know they are in control. But still there is a way. We need a light to remove our ignorance. So it is time to burn ego, hatred, lust, misery, greediness in our minds and create a fire in our minds. The light of fire. This move will throw away all the dark powers out of control and will give indication to the good forces that humans are seeking for the light, once again. It’s time for a cleaner home in which we live, our body. Let’s clean away all the evil forces out. They are like parasites which need a host for food. Once you resist their entrance into you, they will become weaker and perish.

This Diwali, the festival of lights, let’s fill our dark-filled ignorance with colorful knowledge. Burn all the evil forces within and seek for the light within. Wishing you all a very very happy Diwali. Have a bright and colorful year ahead.

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Thanks for reading,
Happy Diwali,
Jackie Jain.

Are we living in Incar-Nations?

Is this possible that Universal nature is our ultimate judge and enforces ‘Cause and Effect principle’ (Karma) as the base of its judgement! Is this possible that the way of life we are living today is the effect of the causes which we created yesterday! Is there a way to overcome our past deeds and thus avoid its effects!?

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The main problem is most of us don’t know that the universe is governed by this cause and effect principle. We don’t believe in this principle because of the illusion, time.  We don’t experience the effect of our deeds at the same moment of doing them, but after a certain period. This certain period is not limited to a lifetime. It is way beyond that. So we don’t have idea of why we suffer so much, because we don’t know what we were in our previous lives. We keep taking birth again and again to experience the effect of our causes in our previous lives. The problem is not that we suffer the effects of our deeds, the problem is that in order to escape this suffering, we create more evil causes. Thus this Domino effect started in the past has lead us today to where and how we are now. At the beginning of age, life was so simple and blissful. So what could have gone wrong!

What could have gone wrong?

Humans, animals, birds, insects and nature all lived in harmony. Humans are blessed with cleverness. This cleverness gave them knowledge of everything, by everything I mean everything, even evil and its energies. Their knowledge raised and raised, and after a point of time, with increase in knowledge, wisdom started decreasing. This deteriorating wisdom led to domination of evilness in humans. They started using these evil energies for their own purpose, then all the hell broke out. Thus by cultivating bad deeds, the future has become dark for humanity. Humans hunted, ate and even sacrificed animals for their own purposes. The helpless souls of animals were not able to save themselves, so after death they were offered incarnation as humans. So thus fight among the humans started taking place. We call them wars now. We don’t realize what is going on is an effect, so we create more evil causes.  Instead of experiencing the effect, we created more evil causes to avoid it. This is how the causes of bad deeds accumulated and have led us to drastic effects which we see today. Why do you think our human population has increased so drastically? Don’t you see how many species of other living beings like animals, birds and insects have become extinct. Where are their souls? Yes, they are among humans to take revenge! Think upon it.

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How far we have come (away from humanity)?

Our world is getting worse and worse in terms of humanity day by day. We think we are wise, but we are ignorant. May be this is due to the reason that what we all accumulate our wealth and sins throughout our life and pass it to our future generation! Wealth is a false assurance. It makes us feel that if we have wealth, we can live happily throughout our lives. Just keep aside all that you know for a second and think, what if the world is full of wealth and just wealth! Can we eat money? Can we drink it? No, right! Money is just to control the resources, but due to our cleverness, we have started to use it to control the ignorant humans. Accumulating our wealth is like accumulating our sins. We don’t realize the mistake while doing it, when when the time comes for the effect of the cause which we created, we realize our mistake, selfishness. We cannot help poor people nearby our places because wealth comes in the middle. We cannot clean our roads because pride comes in the middle. We don’t feel compassion towards others, because ego comes in the middle. These are the hindrances which divided humans and broke the humanitarian progress. We are divided by religions, race, color of skin, countries and professions. We don’t see in real life, but we are accumulating bad causes in subtle levels of universe by dividing ourselves. Nature tries to warn us by natural disasters to alert us from going into wrong direction, and we blame it on climate change. So pity! We are even on the course destroying our nature. But universal nature will give its effect too. Be careful.

Is there a way out to come out of this misery?

Yes, there has always been a way out. By repenting of our sins we can reduce the effect’s magnitude and can even remove it. By accepting others as our fellow beings irrespective of their religions, race, professions and nations. By accepting that we all are flawed at something because of our past deeds of this life and also of our previous lives, not because of one other. This needs a transition of everything, everyone. We need a change not only on global level but also on atomic level, because it is what we are all made of.  If everyone can change their mindset and work towards a better direction, we can change the course of life. Instead of searching for knowledge, we should seek for wisdom and for consciousness. Because consciousness and truth will set us free. Because when we think as human mind, we have desires, ambitions, ego, hatred and even vengeance. When we think with an universal mind, we are all broken atomic puzzle pieces of a single molecule looking to join again as a molecule but the external forces are resisting from doing so, to form a complete molecule, complete soul. We should negotiate these external evil forces and increase the level of consciousness. When everyone accept others the way they are and shows compassion for one other, they form a divine bond and thus trust becomes the foundation. We all thus stop creating more causes and nature pushes our previous bad causes near a black hole which swallows up all the bad effects which were to come. May be this is what will be the end of kaliyuga (era of dirt) and the beginning of satyuga (the era of truth, trust and bliss).

I ask you for forgiveness if I have hurt you in any way in this life knowingly or unknowingly and also in previous lives which I am unaware of. And also I forgive you all. Thanks for reading. Have a beautiful week ahead. 🙂

To do or not to do? What’s the motive?

We often face a situation in which we get into a dilemma of whether doing a particular action is useful or whether not doing it is useful.

There are many ideologies in the world which makes each person unique and one’s perspective is different from one another. If one says that our Earth revolves around the Sun while another says that only such thoughts revolve around our mind but not in reality, latter sounds more logical though. Opinions may vary and even proof may be also one of the many possible solutions of a single problem. So it is difficult to believe what is true or what is not and what is real or what is not. But now we live in a world where we think it is difficult to distinguish even between what is right and what is wrong! This tells how far we have come and how far we have stepped away from humanity. Law and order have completely failed in guiding the humanity in a particular direction and thus it has failed in taking the world on a good and moral path. Is there a way by following which we can all feel satisfied with our actions and bring back goodness and morality in people?

The major failure of humanity is that we perform actions for the sake of results. If we predict that the result will be good, then we perform that action, if we predict that the result will be bad then we don’t perform that action. It may seem right for a moment, but just imagine who knows what our future holds and whatever we assume our results are just mere predictions not the real ones. Motive of an action is more important than the ultimate result. First thing that should be kept in our mind while performing an action is the motive of the action, not the result of the action as result is just our aim not the vision itself. Let’s take a recent example, in our India, Olympic medal winners have been gifted BMW by Sachin Tendulkar for their extraordinary performances. But if they had performed just for sake of that, then their performance would have been affected as their actions may have been distracted from the motive to perform well towards results to win at any cost. As I have said, opinions may vary.

So when you fix motive in your mind, you get there and when you fix result in your mind, you reach no where. Money is not the motive, it is just the fruit of the result. * For example when we get a job, what do most people ask! Is it What is your job about? or is it How much is your salary? * Haven’t you experienced this? Think upon it, how backwards we are travelling nowadays as humanity. People don’t care about what you do, they care about what you get for doing that. This was just one of many examples. We need to set out our motive to do good for others in a good way and improving humanity in us. Motive should be decided on whether doing an action will improve one’s capabilities without hurting others or not and whether it will benefit others or not. Because there is a special feeling of self-satisfaction when we do good to others.

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We live in a world where unless we show the fruits of the result, we don’t perform a particular action. Will you work for the cause of humanity if the result is nothing but just self-satisfaction? I know most of us won’t. Because we are not brought up that way. We work for results but not motive. When the reason of doing an action is good, then the result will turn out to be good. But when your reason for doing an action is wrong at the first place, do you think even the good result will do good to you? No way. From the day when the people in the world will learn to perform an action with a good motive rather than for a unknown good result, then we will be back on the track on the humanity. For example don’t aim to be a successful or a failure, because when you aim for success automatically failure becomes negative to you. But when your motive is improvement rather than success or failure, then you will never fail. And isn’t improvement better than success?

Sometimes ‘good’ motive may also lead to bad results. So what is the problem here? What is ‘good’ here? Is good a good thing only when it does good to the person doing it? No. It’s not. A good thing for one person may not be good to others. This is a very complex issue and should be taken on a global level. For that ‘good’ should be considered as good only when it helps others to become better as a person and makes them feel satisfied too with the motive. So motive should be good so that it brings goodness for everyone on a large scale and concentration should be on motive rather than the result. If we give up our desires and work towards upbringing the social, moral, religious and human values, then we may know the importance of good motive. We are in a situation where all these values are at record low. Isn’t it more important to work for improvement (better say re-birth) of humanity (motive) rather than thinking that it is impossible to change our entire world with such actions (assumed result)!!

If everyone thinks oneself as the center of the universe and make his motive of his actions as upbringing of the whole society for a good cause rather than worrying about the result, then we may see the world which we all want to be in. The insecurity of future makes us work for result rather than motive. But our confidence in present makes us work for motive rather than the result. Think about good things and make them as the motive to bring good in the world, don’t think about good things which you need personally as it will become a problem for others on a global scale. Because if the intention is good, nature tries to bring it in reality and if intention of an action is not good, even then nature being helpless brings that into reality. So be careful while doing an action. If doing good to others is everyone’s motive, then the purpose of humanity will be served. Life is simple but complexities begin when the motive to live life becomes wrong.

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Thanks for reading. I know it was a long read, but while writing this, my reason for writing this was more important than the word count it may end up with. Think about your motive rather than the result while performing an action. Have a great week ahead. 🙂

A ship that never sinks

Our faith is a ship that never sinks, still sometimes we lose our faith because there is not enough water beneath this ship to move forward.

It comes a time in every one’s life where we all face a situation in which we tend to lose faith because of our conditions. Does it mean that the ship of our faith is sinking! I think no. Because the ship of faith never sinks, it always knows how to swim in the times of good and float in the times of bad. The reason we tend to lose faith is because we don’t keep enough water in our rivers to move forward. Having said that, I mean, water is to ‘Inspiration’ and rivers is to ‘life’. It means that we don’t have enough inspiration in our life for our ship of faith to travel to our destiny. Inspiration is the medium of transport for the ship of faith to travel forward. So we lose faith because it is still, it is not moving. In such situations we need to get inspiration and put back ship of faith back on track.

We all need something to move forward. Moving forward not in the sense of distance, it is in the sense of life. Our life keeps us testing by giving difficult situations to keep that inspiration flowing. What is a difficult situation? What is a good situation for you and what is bad? If it does good to you then only the situation is good for you? Then you are wrong. Bad situations brings out the best in us. Bad situation is not bad for you at all, it just says that situation is in trouble and you have to solve the issue. It is an opportunity in disguise to bring out the hidden talent out of you, which could have never come out otherwise.

We should not get attached to the situations because of their conditions. We have get over the situation with our confidence and be happy for what we have learnt from the situation. We should not feel happy when someone is in a difficult situation, we should try to help them out. I don’t know from what humans have come from, but I know, humanity is definitely about helping fellow humans. Even we get more inspiration when we help others out. To bring people out of depression, negativity and difficult situations makes us more strong and happy. That feeling cannot be described in words, anyway.  Difficult situation is temporary but not the lesson learnt from it.

Inspiration comes in many forms. The thing which makes us think about it and give us a good vibe to become something worth living or doing something worth doing, that can come under the category of inspiration. Even though inspiration can make us think of becoming a better person, you have to travel towards that better version of yours with inspiration as fuel. Because ‘we can draw inspiration from others, but still we have to paint it by our own in our life’. Easier said than done. It is not an easy task for sure as it takes our faith, courage, time and determination. Because inspiration is just the water that creates a medium for the flow, it is we who have to keep flowing with faith to reach our goal.

Don’t run for material things which offer you happiness for few moments. Life is a simple hide and seek game by our creator, even I have written a post on this. We have to reach our creator by seeking for him, by having faith in him. Difficult situation are clues to find his whereabouts and get closer to him. Inspiration keeps us motivated enough to reach there. So fill the sea of your life with inspiration, let your faith flow in inspiration towards your destiny.

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Thanks for reading. Be inspired. Have faith on time.